Friday, April 1, 2011

Not another letdown...

In life, there are times when you have so much to think about that once you reach home, all you want to do is jump into bed and sleep.

For me, that's almost every day. It's already Friday, last I remembered, I was setting my alarm for work on Monday. Where the week went, I have no idea.

The day involves waking up, zombie my way to the subway, 212 stairs to the main road and up 10 floors to office. Spend the day sorting out issues and its a 45min walk back to my place. And reach home and sleep. (Will this burn some calories? I hope so)

So the minute someone offers you a job that involves (hopefully) less bickering and far from all these hoohas, I am totally up for it.

Except, again I am let down. Its not that I am not grateful for the opportunities given. I am, really. But do I need to explain why I need to move out of KK? Gosh.

Oh well...don't ask me if I've seen any ancient palaces. Don't ask me if I've gone to Jeju or Nami island. But I've seen mostly subways and gone into countless adidas and nike stores. I can even tell you which one has good stocks hehe.

Have a good weekend!(And yes, I am doing this at my workstation in the dark. I work 7 to 7 here, whats with a little blogging during lunchtime huh)

Monday, February 21, 2011

KK or KL?

So here it goes. The age old question- KK or KL? KL or KK?

I received a call this morning from KL, informing me that the transfer to KL was not successful on my side. In other words, KK apparently 'needs' me more than they already do.

To tell you the truth, it wasn't devastating news. Seriously. Being in KK has its highs and lows, and at times, honestly, they're mostly highs. Sure, I've whined soooooo much about KK being pretty isolated from the world (and I meant KL that is) but its all easy and calm and blissful here.

And KL? The traffic jam (1 week in KL and I used up almost all the words in my curse vocab), the temptations of shopping, the crazy expectations to live up to. All the pretty people.

So what is there to look forward to in KL? Oh yeah- my family. Mom, dad, sis, bro, and the whole clan. Sure I've 'missed' weddings, functions and all the merriment, but I come back so often, sometimes I even forgot if I ever left.

But absence makes the heart grow fonder as they say. And my absence must have not been enough because my lil bro still wouldn't fetch me from KL Central (haha yes, still pretty mad...I mean they will air Grammys over and over again...that's why we have astro duh)...

Still need to figure out where I want to be location wise. And on a serious note, what heights do I want to achieve.

p/s: Thats a pic of my sis I took during one of our KL hangouts. Just a motivation for her to start ahem...exercising with me.

Sunday, January 16, 2011

Rule 1.29 Know when enough is enough

This is an excerpt from The Runner's Rule Book-Everything A Runner Needs to Know-And Then Some:

As with anything, in running there's a fine line between "avid" and "addicted." And as with other types of addictions, the same warning signs apply.
  • Has running interfered with your job?
  • If you're in school, has running affected your studies or your grades?
  • Do you run at the expense of spending enough time with family and loved ones?
  • Do you feel depressed, nervous or irritable if you miss a run?
  • Have you run while injured, rather than focusing on recovery?
In short, do you run because you want to, or run because you need to?
It's a question no one else can answer for you. But first you have to have the guts to ask it.

(Remy 32)

I am guilty for almost everything listed there.

How many of us have marked running events in our office calendar? For the whole year?
Get a little pissed when the supervisor says "I'll see first" when referring to your annual leave?
Get pretty frustrated that there are not much runs to participate in this first quarter?
Have we skipped breakfasts with our parents to make way for LSDs?
Is able to play our regular running route in our minds when we're stuck in the office?
Would rather suck in the pain to run with friends?

So do we run because we want to or need to? Go figure.

Friday, January 7, 2011

Cruising in Mulu...over 2 years!

When my running buddy Jai persuaded me to join his Pinnacle trip for new year's, all I had in mind was a holiday. Basically after coming back from Malakoff and having a good year of runs, all I wanted was a trip. A relaxing one to kill the 3 day holiday.

So I said yes, booked ourselves on a 4D 3N trip to Mulu (thank you Msian footballers; else I would've to beg my supervisor for my annual leave). Two weeks before the trip, I spent alot of time online searching for what the hell these Pinnacles were. Mind you, I have absolutely no idea what they were. Yes. Deprived of facts on our own country. All I knew were Mulu had caves, cos my dad wanted to visit there a long time ago but we diverted our trip to Kuching instead.

The only climb we had was the Bukit Padang 'trail' above.

Anyways, written on the webpages: "To climb the pinnacles, bring your camera, long pants, 3L of water." None would tell you how challenging it is. None would tell you about the sharp rocks and how the crazy steepness would be. All they recommended was that you read the guestbook. (Yeah, couldnt find it btw!)
Reaching Mulu pretty late, we met our guide Richard and were brought to the Mulu National Park to visit the Lang and Deer caves. Both so beautiful and Lang smells like Guano. But hey, the bats live here so whaddaya expect. Check out this pic from Deer Cave. Its Abraham Lincoln!
We were lucky I guess; weather was good and altho reaching late we finished the caves in time to catch the bats looking for food at 5pm sharp. You could just sit there all day and look at their formation. But the bats' performance goes on for about an hour, so cannot la all day.
By 6pm we were brought to Benarat Lodge (cosy & pretty) and were told that we're the only 2 guests. Yeah, who would want to spend their New Year in Mulu of all places right? Creepy! We cleaned up (let me tell you that the caves were a sweaty affair- hot air and lots of walking), rested for awhile and then we met Maria and Richard at dinner. They explained about the following day's program and again, NO MENTION of the DREADED PINNACLE climb. But nevermind, all I could think of was, what are we going to do for New Year's countdown? Surely not spend it in the dark cos the lights at Benarat goes off at 00:00hrs. I mean, that would be 5-4-3-2-1-LIGHTS OFF!
So we pursuaded the guides to let us cross over by boat to Royal Mulu resort, where we heard there's a karaoke lounge and maybe a countdown. We love karaoke. And countdowns.

Two hours later and some great performances by the park guides and guests, we ushered in 2011 with a bang!Literally!!! We had firecrackers. But apparently the orang kampung had their own 'BOOM' which shook the whole Mulu. It was a small affair, but enough to keep everyone company and happy for that short time.
Someone must've had a good time out too, cos the lights at Benarat Lodge went off at 0130hrs. And after Richard dropped us off at the front gate, we trodded in the dark with our torchlights. So dark I took a wrong turn and went up the wrong house hehehe.
After breakfast the next morning, we headed to the Penan village followed by the Wind Cave, Clearwater Cave and the Lady Cave. The Wind Cave was my favourite. Its like a structured architecture, but nature in its own way. Having a guide like Richard really helps, as he could explain the formation and how the cave came about.Every single curve, every scallop has its own tale.
Once we're done with the caves and lunch, we headed towards the afternoon's program-trek to Camp 5. Nienka & Yan from Holland and Ingvar from Germany joined us. So we were the only 5 people who wanted to climb the Pinnacles the New Year weekend. The boat dropped us off at Long Litut, where we trekked 8km to Camp 5. Its not so bad, its pretty muddy from last night's rain, but I slipped twice on those wooden planks and hit my left knee hard on a tree trunk. Although bruises on my knee and a painful ass, I reached Camp 5, ready to jump into the cold river.
That night, after dinner, Bego explained to us about the Pinnacle climb. Its a 2400m trail. At 2000m onwards you will face ropes and ladders to reach the peak. We have to reach there latest by 11 or else it will be shrouded by fog. It sounded pretty simple.

Then I had a chat with Maria. She said no, she's not following as she's on standby in case anything happens. And thats when I started freaking out. Wait, this is just a trail right, I asked her. She said its a climb, different from Mt Kinabalu as there are no steps, no clear trails. You will climb from the beginning and its slippery rocks and branches and your heartbeat will be fast and you have got no time to think. She asked me, first time ke? I said nope. Im referring to the Bukit Padang climb as my first, so this is my second. I bullshit alot.
I couldn't sleep that night. Pretty much in fear. Kept thinking about the slippery sharp rocks and how inexperienced I was about climbing. We slept at 7.45pm. At 5am, I woke up, and suddenly I had no fear at all. We're doing the Pinnacle climb? Yeah, bring it on!
We left the camp at 6.36am, being a regular runner, the stopwatch is a must. It says 8 hrs up and down. I've ran a marathon for 6 hrs. So what's another 2 more hours of heart pounding exercise.
The first climb up Mt Api came barely 7 mins into the trail. And as you ascend, there were no levelling ground, the only way for you to catch the next person is if you look up. Bego was fast, he's like a deer on the rocks, jumping swiftly. I was catching up after Ingvar, cos the minute I lost sight of his hat, I felt practically lonely in the jungle. So I pushed myself to go faster and took 6 second breathers between each long climb. My strategy was this-climb until you reach a dead point. Until you have no where else to put footing on.
Jai, Nienka & Yan were waaaay back. But they were singing all the way so I could hear their voices not too far behind. I was catching up on Ingvar, and I knew they were down there somewhere in a group, so I didn't wait up. At the 900m point, we reached the mini pinnacles. Maria told me this is where you decide whether you want to continue the journey or head back. At that point, I wasn't even exhausted. I had 1 GU Chomps already, and took another as we waited for the rest.

The next point I anticipated was the 2000m mark. I knew this was the point where the ropes and ladders would go crazy. True enough, it was. Bego said go ahead as he wanted to wait up for the three Pinnacle singers. That's when I felt the real challenge.

With these short legs, I was basically stretching myself to the limit to find my footing and grab hold of the rocks. Sometimes the ladders were out of my reach and I had to do some trapeze stunts to get my first leg on the first step. When there were hooks, it was even tougher. The hooks were far apart and from one hook to another, I had to find someplace else to grab and carry myself up. All this on slippery feet. The ladders were slippery, the hooks were slippery. The wooden planks were of course slippery.
At that time, you forget about how high it was, or whether one slip off the ladder could send you down the sharp rocks in an instant. Your life practically depended on the ropes and rocks. But all I could think of was, where is the top?
Ingvar the Pinnacle Yeti was waiting on top halfway through his fried rice when I came up squeezing through the narrow path. The view-so beautiful! There you are on top of Mt Api, overlooking all these Pinnacles, sharp limestones, appearing out of nowhere on the mountains. I think everyone will forget how they even managed to climb up there. And no one spoke about tough the last 400m up was. I forgot it took me 3hrs 40mins to reach there. We were just up there on the rocks, having our picnic and sharing a good laugh.
Bego let us all chill out for a while since we reached there comfortably before 1030hrs. True to its word, at 1100hrs, the fog came, and we got to see how quickly the view went from brightly sunny to cold and foggy. 1200hrs, we got off our asses and braved ourselves for the climb down.

Alot of the people I've met cautioned me about the climb down. They say it is TOUGHER than the climb up. It took me 4hrs 45mins to climb down. So you can imagine. Climbing down the first 400m was ok for me as I was descending backwards. Finishing the 400m, the dreaded climb down began.
Too slippery, nowhere to grab and if I were gifted with long legs, it would be like going downstairs step by step. But no long legs here. To descend rock by rock, I was on my bum all the time. And when I realized my pace was going slower and slower, I got frustrated. Jai was extremely fast on the way down but thank God he waited for me. It wasn't that I was giving up, but it was more of wanting to know you're not alone.

Especially when I raced too fast and slammed my knees right into a sharp rock. Lucky for me, I fell right where Bego and Jai were waiting for me. I felt a little woozy and realized my right knee was bleeding. 2 GU chomps, some Coke and medical aid by the fellas, I braved down on wounded knees (wah, mcm drama plak) practically crying inside from the pain.
Nienka & Yan was waaay behind, the only call sign was the bird call....or "Like a virgin-" replied with an "Auuwww!"

Halfway down, Jai also had problems with his knees, so we were basically on the same pace. The last rock climb down was a breather...the last stretch we were running back to Camp 5, forgot all about knee pain or wounds. Maria must've thought there was an emergency as we came back running to the camp shouting her name. And all the other newcomers to Camp 5 were pretty confused about these 2 Malaysians running out of the jungle screaming.
Next agenda, jump into the river to drown the pain!

That night it was hard to sleep, the adrenaline was still rushing. Everytime I closed my eyes, I was back in the jungle climbing the mountain. At 0300hrs, I fell asleep.

Thank goodness the next day we were headed back to Long Litut on a free and easy trek. Ingvar, Jai & I led the way and reached the river in 2hrs. I guess when you're excited to get out of there, the route becomes too easy.
After one pacat and 2 ankle sprains, we said goodbyes to the other fellas and the boat took us back to Benarat Lodge. Since we had time before our flight, we chilled at the house for abit. I wish I could do that all day long. The breeze could lullaby you to sleep man!
Maria and Abg Mat sent us off to the airport and checked us in. We're very lucky that we had Richard our excellent cave guide, Maria our lovely ultracool guide and great cook and lovely company all along the way.
Right now, the pain has gone away, and my legs are itching for another adventure (Maria's invitation for a headhunter trail is sooo tempting). Dah siap beli adidas Kanadia TR3, rugilah tak pakai. Ask me to run a marathon right now, I would. Pinnacles again, entah la. But the adrenaline rush of a trail, woahhhhh. Shanaz, I get you now.
What I would write on the webpages: "To climb the pinnacles, bring your stamina, loads of bravery and GU chomps and Coke. And when you reach the top, sing your heart out!"

***Credit to my good friend Jai for the lovely shots!

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

6:00:52

My first marathon...and that's my PB!

Flashback to Borneo Intl Marathon (BIM) in May, a table of us runners were having our carbo loading at Little Italy.

One full stomach later, I pledged to run a FULL marathon in December. Talk about influence. And no, nothing intoxicating was involved. Just me and my disability to resist.

Except for the months of March and August, I had races lined up the whole year round. So let's not go through again how many races I've done. But as many races you go through, with lessons learnt along the way, tips googled over the net, rack loads of runnersworld, email forwards from the sifu (thanks!)...nothing can predict the real challenge you face except on the day you run
your marathon.
Its called YOUR marathon, because only YOU can describe what you've gone through. And if its 19,000 people running it, that's 19,000 stories told.

PRE-MARATHON
Coming back from Penang, I managed to squeeze in a Signal Hill, few rounds of Likas and 1 shot of Yayasan Sabah. Penang was a good race for me, and I was trying to keep up the momentum; although the runs were short and nothing more than a 12k, it was just to remind my legs they have a big one coming up.

2 weeks of tossing and turning, walking around like a zombie (thank u office ppl for alerting every morning) and having almost no appetite for food (at one point, even chocolate sounded like plain vanilla)...Despite all that plus the logistic mix-ups and no thanks to Tiger Airways; I made it to Singapore in good shape. The plane was like a chartered plane for runners (met regulars Carrie, Dannie and KK) and yeah, sure we flew 30mins extra in the air because we couldn't land, but that just adds to the excitement!

Agenda #1: collect race pack and check out expo...met Ijam's friend Zaki (saje je i bring u pusing2 S'pore, exercise kaki sket)...race pack collected..and what expo? U mean that asics booth?

Agenda #2: No trip to Singapore would be complete without a makan2 session by Selly the elite bib swapper (or experienced indulgence coordinator). Enough carbo loading to keep you awake thinking about the carbo loading. And enough camwhoring to bring you to celeb status.

Agenda #3: Meet my pacer- the gorgeous doc PS!
Agenda #4: Check-in, be a good girl and sleep early.

Agenda #5: Amplify the marathon excitement.


MARATHON DAY
I must be sugar high from the previous night's fondue, because I woke up at 2am all ready to go. But yeah, we promised to meet up at 4am, so what's a jittery girl to do except a little more toss and turn on the bed.

Reached Orchard Rd pretty early, met more familiar faces...so quick chat here and there, and before you know it, the baggage deposit queue was eeeek, endless! So let's not talk about the crazy baggage deposit, but I shoved my bags in time for my pacer and me to start the race with the heaviest herd of people.

We were right in the middle of almost a gazillion people, all in blue, and no familiar faces. So thank you, PS. It was all pure excitement running with you babe, no nerves at all.

At that point when I crossed the starting line, 42km did not quite register in me yet. All I thought was, let's LSD with 19,000 people on a Sunday morning in Singapore for a change.

Told PS I wanted to do slow and steady, and she said she would follow my pace...so first target- do a warm-up pace...second target- look for a place to pee. Found a food court with toilets...haha, u porta-potty suckers! If only you guys persevere...you will find one!
At 5km, with water tank emptied, we steadily paced towards Esplanade. Weather was cool, sun hasn't come up yet...and dawn looks just so pretty when we ran by the Singapore Flyer.

PS let me bask in the atmosphere...I admit the pace was slow hahaha!

It was easy to distract yourself when you're running amidst buildings and houses. There were cheering squads, there was loud music, the weather was cool...so that 10km went by in a daze.

And then welcome to ECP. The park which goes on and on that you are cringing for a freaking u-turn sign. And in October this was the park that failed me. This time it was a stretch of about 17km, and with a gazillion people running a narrow lane, I got a taste of sweaty elbows and bits and pieces of their conversations. Nothing memorable, except this fella who took a glance at PS' bib of encouragement and told his friend, "ehh aku lama tak update blog aku lah, nak kene update pasal running nih"...so PS...good promo!
ECP is where the sun shines...and it shone bright and lovely. Please NO newton 30k episode, I told myself. At 17km, I started seeing more and more familiar faces on the return route. The fact that you get to spot these faces amongst these crowded runners just comforts you. Asree, KK, Kash, SBR, Ijam, Irwan, Carrie and Mohan! For a moment, it took my mind off the route.

But just for those split moments...and then the newton 30k episode came. And mind you, I haven't even had isotonic. And the sun was on my head. Two of my worst enemies.

KM21-26 sounds like a mere 5km, but it was a really dreadful one. I stopped, I took a breather, I tried to skip. Stomach stitches came and stayed for that whole period. More stops. More sighing. But this time I tried my best to jog it off...and whaddaya know, I made it to km28 and out of ECP finally!!!

KM28-31 was through a dusty construction site and it felt like a death march. Practically NO ONE was running. This was also about the time that I left my pacer without notifying her. Sorry hehe..but thank you PS, you have stayed with me through that whole stretch. (Seems I passed the baton for PS to pace YY and CW...u guys are lucky too!)

Mohan kept an eye on me through KM32-36, bringing along all the other fellas who were almost giving up. And there were ALOT.

At this point of time, the heat was starting to take a toll on me. I had 6km more to go. I had about 45mins to go to finish a 6hr timing. I knew Benjamin Sheares was coming up.

Poured water on my head. Took 2 GU chomps.

Did I tell you I ran the whole bridge? Up and down? Its either the sudden energy boost or the fact that someone told me if there's a hill, just drag your ass up no matter what because you know it will be over soon.

Once you come down that bridge, you know you're almost done. The momentum to finish strong was building up. I took another GU chomp (hey, try this cranberry & apple flavor-nice!) and km by km I finally made my way to the Padang.
The last 2km seemed like forever! Met Agus who had leg cramps but was steadily striving to finish (way to go!)...at that point seeing anyone familiar was motivating enough.

Along the race I had a few breather moments, and some of the passers by said to me, "Come on girl, this is what you trained for." I did, didn't I?

1km to go. Legs?Ok. Heartbeat? Ok. So what do we do now? We runnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn!!!
And run through that gantry I did :) My first marathon! All 42km of it!
Although I lost to Oprah (6hr timing isn't exactly a wow thingy)...but the first will always be remembered.

POST MARATHON
Let's skip the food indulgence story, shall we? Or do we need to see my endless photos of ice cream and waffles?

Oh well, I know I didn't win an Oscar, but can I just give my notes of thanks?
  • PS- thank you for bringing me into ur world. No, not all the insanities...just the 'we run to eat' part
  • KK adination runners- Judy, Sam, Corny, Boyd, Audrey and the rest whom I've run 5am Sunday mornings with
  • Ninie, Glo & Silah- my homies for trying to understand what this all means to me
  • Irwan & Shanaz...thank u for keeping me in the loop altho Im far, far away in KK...
  • DMers & FB pals- Selly, Mohan & Hazel, Azhar, Fiki, Agus, Marshal, KA, Cynthia, Asree, Azah, Kak June, Karen..OMG...I can't name all my FB friends here can I?
  • Bloggers - Ijam, Kash, Nik, KK- ur blogs have kept me on my toes
And just practically anyone who has encouraged and support me all this time...I've got some races in mind for 2011...but for now, let's just close the year with this one.

Cheers All!

Sunday, November 28, 2010

T-6 days...

Officially activated the PANIC button.

6 more days. I try to sleep but these funny dreams keep popping up:

i) lost my bib, then found it, got torn halfway, went to the marshall asking for a new one (???)
ii) woke up late, arrived late at the starting point, ran halfway, turned out it was the wrong route

Can't seem to find something that satisfies my hunger. Even when I craved that Burger King, it was nice for that savoury 30mins. But that's about it. I jump on my bed and the panic starts all over again.

With the trainings I've done and all my well wishers' tips...just let me finish this race safely.

My aim for this first FULL marathon:
i) run as much as I can. Skip when I'm tired, walk when I'm TOTALLY tired
ii) finish in a comfortable time
iii) run past any Oprah lookalikes in style
iv) be able to smile at the finishing line

My anticipated enemies:
i) The Singapore heat. (BIM2010 & newton 25km, both races I surrendered to the heat. And as I remembered very well in May and Oct when I was there, the Singapore sun isn't going to give u any mercy.)
ii) Side stitches. Let's forget abt isotonic altogether
iii) Irregular breathing (Only once have I used my inhaler for this, and it was BIM2009. I have learnt to overcome this I hope)

Panic, panic, panic...!!!

In the meantime, I'll down myself some ginger beer. Its the only thing that's keeping me sane right now. Food just doesn't cut it.

Til my next report. Cheers!

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

FM...t-11 days!

Can't believe how fast time flies. Felt like PBIM2009 wasn't so long ago, in fact when I ran the race this time, I could actually remember the whole route in my mind.

Last year I took my first walk break at km3. This year I took a breather at km20. How time flies, and what a big change it did in 1 year.

Selly paced me the first 2km, as a warm-up before continuing each one's race. Slow and steady, forget about the people around you. Forget its a race, just do your thanggg. LSD, LSD, LSD we said. And a good decision it was.

I was steady all the way til km20 when I felt a little nauseous. I knew that was coming. It happens every single time I'm close to the finishing line. Must be the excitement.

So here's the challenge as I saw it:
  • Braving the crazy rain from km14 (tho I wished it was raining men instead of raining ON men) that totally minimized the visibility, water in face and sweat- painful!
  • Avoiding the rolling bottles across the roads, and trying not to slip on bottle caps
  • Wet sponges! In the rain! Like a landmine!
  • Self-untying shoelace- must be due to the rain, came off about 6 times!!! And I did double loop ok
Being conservative about running conditions, I've never ran in the rain. But this is one time I am happy it poured! Cos it was cooling, it made me ran faster to the hotel and who needs water stations at this time?

Pre-race I had pasta, mash potatoes, pancakes and chicken and mushroom pie. All yummy and no regrets.

Post race I only had a cherry muffin, a coke and char kuey tiow. For the first time, too tired to think about food!

PBIM2009: 2hrs 51mins 55secs
PBIM2010: 2hrs 34mins 33secs

Looking back, I think I could've pushed myself, but I hated risks. Scared my lungs will explode. Scared I'll injure my ankle. Scared I'll get those dreaded side stiches. (This time, it did not even appear!)

Now, if only I get a penny for every time someone says "See you in Singapore!"...I would be almost rich. Well, it could get me a tall toffee nut latte at least...

T-11 days and I can't get it out of my mind! While the other fella is calculating equipment turndown, I am at my workstation estimating my marathon splits.

Focus!